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Cycles & Psychos
03:00
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How long must I pretend that i'm ok in the head
the sadness comes and goes but always comes back in the end.
I have these thoughts that just won't, won't leave my brain
Yet I smile, as if i feel no pain
but no eyes can see the things that are plaguing me
i've become a slave to this and can't seem to break free
keep calm, it'll soon be over
I can't, hold on much longer
the weight of it all is killing me
walls are closing in on me.
I haven't felt joy
for what seems like forever
will i be able to feel it again?
Every time i close my eyes to rest
I hope that i never wake up again!
I don't fear death but i fear the tears
coming from the ones that I keep near.
(I'm losing my mind)
keep calm, keep calm, keep calm
keep calm. It will all soon be over
I can't hold on much longer
the cycle will start again
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Cocoon
02:47
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the room is dark
i'm cocooned in my thoughts
i'm trying to think of ways to escape this place.
I can see a vision of the younger me
there's a light there but I blink and it goes away
Hello? Can anyone hear me?
Am I truly alone?
Is this some kind of personal hell?
Have I gone forever locked inside my mind?
with no freedom, with no key to this cell?
is their any god that can save me?
I never called on one before
but I think that the timing is perfect
Is their anyway to save me?
I don't want to live life anymore
I've come to the realization that none of this is worth it.
Instead of running I can face my inner demons
instead of running I can stand my ground
maybe then I can change my fate
maybe then I can turn it around.
Instead of going back to the start
I can find the light again
Why not? I guess it's worth the try
i'll never know if I don't try
the room is dark, I'm cocooned in my thoughts
i'm thinking of ways to escape.
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I've been standing still for 30 days
stagnant, not making any change.
my passion has dust on it
i have stains from the tears that have dried on my face
i'm not gonna cry.
not tonight, not tonight.
I say it like it's true but in my mind i know it's a lie.
there's no need to tell me something that I already know.
They say it's better if you talk about it
sometimes I don't want to talk
sometimes, a lot of times I don't feel like I can
I want to sit in silence but in someone's eyes
see inside they're screaming just as loud as I am.
I'm not going to cry.
You see i'm trying more than i'm not trying
i'm surviving more than i'm dying
but that doesn't mean that i'm alive
or living life.
it just means that i'm passing by and passing time
sure as hell making mistakes and learning not to make them twice
no, i'm not gonna cry.
I'm lost in the sea but trying to find my way to the shore
I know that i can get there again
cause i've been there many times before.
but my legs are tired and my arms aren't strong enough
not strong enough to keep swimming.
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The Pheonix
04:41
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I look in the mirror
just to see myself a little clearer
Past reflections from smiles to distractions
I am suffering.
This fire is burning
my heart feels the yearning
they say life is full of lessons
I haven't done much learning.
I felt the rain of a thousand different pains
happiness left as quick as it came
I ask myself how much more can I take?
cause lately i've been drowning
I'm tired of smiling, you all know it's fake
but I won't let this decide my fate
growth is a choice, it is a choice that we all make
arrows filled with sorrow
rain down on me
the pressure of it all is too much to handle.
Searching the ends of the earth, till you are a found.
this is all too much
my cup runs full and i'm willing to start over.
travel back to the beginning
soul search my heart
recover the broken piece before this tears me apart
this is all too much.
You used to always be on my mind
but then i realize that you were just a waste of time
the shine that i once saw in your eyes
was just the light that you stole from my life
arrows filled with sorrow
rain down on me
the pressure of it all is too much to handle
searching the end of the earth
until you are found
this is all too much
my cup runs full and i'm willing to start over
who I am is far from the person i've been
I lost it all once, I won't lose it again
I must remember that the pain won't take me
I'll keep on rising from it, I'll keep rising from it
where I am is far from the places i've been
the days aren't that bright but they're less dim
I must remember in the end, who I am
I am the phoenix.
feel the fire in your heart.
I look in the mirror
just to see myself a little clearer
Past reflections from smiles to distractions
I am suffering.
This fire is burning
my heart feels the yearning
they say life is full of lessons
I haven't done much learning.
I felt the rain of a thousand different pains
happiness left as quick as it came
I ask myself how much more can I take?
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